she always wanted to be a boy. my first girlfriend. you see, this is so ironic, because. i am a girl who fell in love with a girl that really wanted to be a boy. (what kind of lesbian am i anyway?)
and...i went to support groups and everything. if it wasn't for this big thing, and believe me, it is very big in a relationship, i am almost sure we'd still be together.
i feel like the most awful person because i couldn't get over the fact that she just wanted to deny all her female qualities. that didn't leave much for me. i was (finally) out-and-proud and then i have to lose the one person in the world that could complete me--- to the opposite sex. god, if i could just go back in time. i hope that i would see the value in the person and just move the fuck on.
sorry. i've been drinking merlot.
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